“Adventurer: one who never reaches a destination”
Seorang petualang adalah seorang yang tidak pernah sampai.
Am I one? Dunno. These days I’m never sure of who I am anymore. I can be this but I can be that too. A confused blend of ideals and realities. Yeah, sometimes I can’t separate which is me and which is the me I want to be.
Finished Da Vinci Code today. Started reading Mir’s Importance of Being Earnest but no hot burning passion to reading anything. Weird.
A good deed done out of responsibility, would it get its reward?
I do that a lot. Sounds bad, huh….. I feel like a jerk: my grandma fractured her arm and nobody else’s home so I had to take care of her and (this is hard to admit) I’m not very gentle or condescending. I felt more like I should do what I did but I wasn’t too happy about it…
…. To think in retrospect and really registering what I wrote (what I DID), it was really bad….. I’m hating myself. But even now, I can’t imagine myself being so totally selfless and attend to all her needs.
Ashamed with myself…
Eugh. Checked my grades today. Bad news: two A- and two A (and two Ps). Eugh. Well I suppose that’s what I should expect for missing almost half of lectures all semester long. But still… eugh.
A reminder: can’t be too confident with myself. Too much pride, I guess… =b