Hell I don’t know what’s happening to me. Just feeling kind of hazy and blurry and in a ghost-like trance, I’m thinking but at the same time that’s not me thinking, just an impersonal identity taking over for a while to keep me functioning. I’m seeing, walking, laughing, talking, but detached from all those behind a veil.
The lost one is still “lost”, I guess. In the truest sense. Hey blondie bitchy sexy girls I am lost to you now.
Just finished my exam. Did bad. I should have known ODD CD PTSD and ADHD, psychopathic antisocial dependence abuse and panic attacks but turned out I don’t know enough.
Whoa I need to call Senia. Ugh my procrastinating habit really hasn’t changed after all. Let’s see… how long have I been telling myself to call her?….. since two months…right? Parah.
Whoa I also need to….consult someone…..who? Aly no Ilona no Joni no Yudi no mum NO Sunny hmmm no Mir’s NO… well don’t really WANT to talk about it anyway.
Please Be Careful With My Heart, Jose Marichan:
You can take it, but don’t break it, or my world will fall apart
You are my first romance
and I’m willing to take a chance
I will be true to you,
just a promise from you will do
From the very start, please be careful with my heart